It has taken me a few months to try and pull myself out of this rut that i got myself into. Not sure what happened or when it happened but all I can say that i’m starting to get my “mojo” back, even if it’s just to open up my dashboard on this blog and start writing again. I have been feeling a little suffocated lately. Not really able to wrap my head around getting anything done. The last cake i made was for my son’s 3rd birthday.
I was excited to get it done. I loved the finished product and couldn’t wait for everyone to see it. But even this robot cake wasn’t able to pull me completely out of the rut. I wasn’t excited anymore about making anything. I was stuck.
I put so much energy into learning and acquring new information and techniques into creating these cakes that i couldn’t see past the time and energy that i put into it. I was feeling short changed. You know when you feel like you give and give and just can’t seem to get anything back? Maybe it’s just crazy hormonal issues, or maybe it’s this weather? Or maybe, just maybe i was loosing my desire for cakes. Somewhere along the way i wasn’t feeling the passion anymore. Where did it dissapear to? Why had it left? Why couldn’t i turn on the oven and the mixer and start making something?? It proved challenging to even think about it. I would rather go and sit infront of the TV and loose myself in midless television sitcoms then to even think about cakes. Sure, i’ve made cupcakes here and there but nothing else. Nothing. Life seems to get in the way sometimes.
I need to find it again. I need to get the blood flowing again. I need to feel pride and know that what i’m doing is what i’m supposed to be doing. I need to get all the bad thoughts out of my head and get my hands dirty again (so to speak:))
Ok, here i go…